memories consume

like opening the wound

i'm picking me apart again

you all assume

i'm safe here in my room

[unless i try to start again] 

i don't want to be the one

the battles always choose

cause inside i realize

that i'm the one confused 

i don't know what's worth fighting for

or why i have to scream

i don't know why i instigate

and say what i don't mean

i don't know how i got this way

i know it's not alright

so i'm 

breaking the habit

tonight 

clutching my cure

i tightly lock the door

i try to catch my breath again

i hurt much more

than anytime before

i had no options left again 

i'll paint it on the walls

cause i'm the one at fault

i'll never fight again

and this is how it ends 

i don't know what's worth fighting for

or why i have to scream

but now i have some clarity

to show you what i mean

i don't know how i got this way

i'll never be alright 

so i'm

breaking the habit

breaking the habit 

tonight