i don't know who to trust

no surprise

everyone feels so far away from me

heavy thoughts sift through dust

and the lies 

trying not to break 

but i'm so tired of this deceit 

every time i try to make myself 

get back up on my feet 

all i ever think about is this 

all the tiring time between 

and how

trying to put my trust in you 

just takes so much out of me 

i take everything from the inside

and throw it all away

cause i swear / for the last time

i won't trust myself with you 

tension is building inside

steadily

everyone feels so far away from me

heavy thoughts forcing their way

out of me 

i won't trust myself with you

i won't waste myself on you

waste myself on you

you