when i pretend

everything is what i want it to be

i look exactly like what you had always wanted to see

when i pretend

i can forget about the criminal i am

stealing second after second 

just cause i know i can / but

i can't pretend this is the way 

it will stay / i'm just

trying to bend the truth

i can't pretend i'm who you want me to be 

so i'm 

lying my way from you 

[no / no turning back now]

i wanna be pushed aside 

so let me go

[no / no turning back now]

let me take back my life 

i'd rather be all alone

[no turning back now]

anywhere on my own

cause i can see

[no / no turning back now]

the very worst part of you 

is me 

i remember what they taught to me

remember condescending talk of who i ought to be

remember listening to all of that and this again

so i pretended up a person who was fitting in

and now you think this person really is me and i'm

[trying to bend the truth]

but the more i push 

the more i'm pulling away 

'cause i'm 

lying my way from you 

this isn't what i wanted to be

i never thought that what i said 

would have you running from me

like this 

the very worst part of you

the very worst part of you 

is me